Seconds ago, I was serene and smiling at strangers, now I'm seething with rage. This extreme shift from calm to furious, triggered by a typical everyday annoyance, is a real life example of my struggle with neurodivergent emotional dysregulation
Thanks for sharing! It's so so true, all of it. As ADHDer with severe RSD I just have to tell myself that it's only 10% true, 90% of it is in my head. Somehow I convince myself that someone hates me and develop an equal hatred back. I've been working through these perceived "rejections" with my therapist and she suggested journaling and writing out these emotional experiences. It's helpful to analyze them but these intense feelings don't go away. As a child teachers would offer to gather all kids and tell them that my "bad attitude" is not because I hate them all. It's because I didn't feel included. Teachers were able to help me back then but in adulthood, who will advocate for you? I'm learning to understand this .
I would love to read something similar to this but for the military Service Members to reference.
Maybe there is something similar I am not aware of yet.
I can tell you I am learning to 'accept' although the struggle is real when it seems some people just make me feel they are trying to upset me to see what I do next.
Or perhaps make it appear as if I cannot do something I can do.
Thanks for sharing! It's so so true, all of it. As ADHDer with severe RSD I just have to tell myself that it's only 10% true, 90% of it is in my head. Somehow I convince myself that someone hates me and develop an equal hatred back. I've been working through these perceived "rejections" with my therapist and she suggested journaling and writing out these emotional experiences. It's helpful to analyze them but these intense feelings don't go away. As a child teachers would offer to gather all kids and tell them that my "bad attitude" is not because I hate them all. It's because I didn't feel included. Teachers were able to help me back then but in adulthood, who will advocate for you? I'm learning to understand this .
Beautifully said, thanks for sharing :) I particularly liked the part about the sound of your husband chewing, I relate!
I would love to read something similar to this but for the military Service Members to reference.
Maybe there is something similar I am not aware of yet.
I can tell you I am learning to 'accept' although the struggle is real when it seems some people just make me feel they are trying to upset me to see what I do next.
Or perhaps make it appear as if I cannot do something I can do.
Thanks so much for writing this, Jeanie - it’s brilliant: accurate info and clearly and emotively communicated.
Exceptional article - extremely insightful and informative - beautifully written - very relatable
Thank you Andrew 🫶🥰